God has prepared me well for the worst that could happen. On my way to Iloilo, He pampered me and filled my heart with so much joy and gratitude. He filled my love tank to the brim because He knew I would be needing all the love, joy, peace, and sense of gratitude for what was bound to happen on my 28th birthday.
Unlike in the previous years, I never had any cake this year, I wasn't surrounded by friends and there wasn't really a birthday feast. It was just an ordinary day in the province. I spent most of the day beside Lola Rosa, praying for and with her, singing songs of praise and worship, reading the Gospel, and some chapters of the book, The Fifth Mountain.
After lunch, I cooked spaghetti and went back beside Lola. She was struggling to stay alive. She was barely breathing. I knew she was already tired of fighting for every breath, but she seemed not ready to go yet. Mama and I spoke to her as we witness how her nails turn to violet. I whispered in her ear how much I love and admire her, how she is an inspiration to me, and how I'd love to spend more time with her. But I also told her how it breaks my heart to see her suffer. And though it pains me to let her go on the day of my birthday, I would rather see her rest peacefully than continue to suffer. She could no longer respond but her eyes were watery with tears. I got up to get some spaghetti. I wouldn't let the opportunity pass for Lola to taste my masterpiece.
A few minutes after she tasted the spaghetti and after Mama promised to take care of everything (apparently, there are family issues which Lola would still want to settle) with the help of her siblings, Lola Rosa finally closed her eyes and breathed her last.
It was the most painful moment, but even with tears, I thank God for Lola's years, for the life she well-lived, for the lessons she has imparted, and for the happy memories she has left us with.
October 15, 2014 was truly a day to remember for it was the day when Lola and I celebrated our birthdays... mine on earth, and hers in heaven.
Rest in peace, Lola Rosa. Your death broke my heart, but the thought of you spending eternity with Lolo Amen, Tito Nerio, Tito Patrick, Tito Willy, Tito Kano, Irell, and ultimately with Our Creator, gives me peace and joy. Thank you and I love you, Lola!
Thank You and I love You too, Lord! ♥
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