This weekend is another affirmation of God's amazing, overwhelming love!
We started our Covenant Orientation Weekend Retreat yesterday. God knows what we've gone through just to make it happen. Honestly, I was tempted to cancel it but God said, "Go on, My child. Know that this is not your work but Mine. I will make it happen!"
Full of trust and confidence that the Lord will deliver what He promised, we pushed through with the weekend retreat even when there were still a lot of uncertainties. Will there be participants? Will there be enough budget for food and venue rental? And so on.
When almost everything was already settled (music min - check, worship leader - check, participants - check, speaker - on the way), I left to attend to my "daughter duties." As mentioned in my previous post, Papa has been sick and I got really worried when Ate Dimple spoke with me last Friday, telling me that I should convince Papa to see a cardiologist. She said the ECG results clearly show that there's something wrong, something which can progress. And so yesterday, we went to Dr. Rey Mariano, a specialist on heart diseases. He confirmed that Papa has clogged veins and described Papa's heart as "may tama na on all sides". X-ray results were not also good so Papa has to undergo ultrasound of the right lung. To summarize, I went clinic/hospital-hopping yesterday. The ending? Well, Papa has to go back to the doctor tomorrow but he has to take four medicines over the weekend.
Then I went back to the CO Weekend venue for my "service duties". I really praise and thank God for everything that He has provided us with - participants, speakers (Kuya Rod, Ate Martha, Kuya Don, Ace, Mike, Ate Gigi, Kuya Mito), priest (Fr. Mac), food (thanks to our sponsors: Tito Pollie & Tita Chit, Tito Roland & Tita Daisy, Kuya John & Ate Leah, Kuya Marlon, Ate Cindy), and all the love, prayers, and support of our brothers and sisters in East A! :)
It was indeed successful and I couldn't thank God enough. It was one proof that truly, He is in control. I went home full of inspiration and love, affirmed that whatever happens, the Lord will always be with me. I may be carrying a heavy load (and a heavy heart) but I know God's hand is helping me, giving me the strength that I need.
I have doubts, fears, and lots of anxieties, but I am certain of one thing: I AM GOD'S BELOVED.
Everything happens for a reason, a purpose which only God knows. I may not understand the things that I need to go through now, these emotions that I have to deal with, but in time, I know God will reveal everything to me. :)
For now I just have to wait and trust and allow the Lord's will to be done in my life.
As Fr. Mac mentioned in his homily, when we pray the Lord's Prayer, our hand gesture is not supposed to be that of asking, but that of surrendering because it is only when we surrender can we fully experience the power of God. We surrender because we believe that we are LOVED BY A GREAT GOD who wants nothing but the BEST for us. :)
I'll end the weekend and start the new week singing this song:
For every simple thing You gave me
For the special times we spent
For every smile You painted on my face
For understanding my limitations
For putting up with my frustrations
For always being there every step of the way
For sharing my little moments,
When I’m happy and I’m not
You never lost a single minute to spare
There are times a day could really turn out so bad
And there’s nothing I can do to get it back
You take it away with all Your lovin’
You take it away with just one touch
Whatever reason I may have to worry,
You take away from me
You never failed to say “I love you.”
When I needed it the most
Hearing these words make me feel so good
You don’t forget to tell me “goodnight”
And kiss me when the morning comes
Hold me tight when something is wrong
There are times a day could really turn out so bad
And there’s nothing I can do to get it back
You take it away with all Your lovin’
You take it away with just one touch
Whatever reason I may have to worry,
You take away from me
For everything, thank You and I love You too, Lord! ♥
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