Since Sunday, I've been complaining about my throat. It hurts so much that I couldn't enjoy my favorite activity - eating. Yesterday morning, I've already experienced chills and on-off fever which made me stay in bed until almost lunch time. But because I have a scheduled meeting in the afternoon, I still went to work. When I got home that evening, I was so exhausted. It doesn't help that I was only eating a little because swallowing is just too painful. I decided to just drink Quakers Oat Dairy but even that hurts. :'(
I woke up today chilling with fever. And the pain in my throat has worsened. I really don't want to go to the doctor because I hate medicines and antibiotics. I did my best to self-medicate by drinking salabat and gargling with Bactidol, but because I have another meeting today and the coming weeks will also be busy, I have to be sure to get well asap. I decided to visit Dr. Mariano at his clinic. On my way there, I was praying for him to still be there. His clinic is until 12nn but sometimes he leaves early so I was telling God, "please Lord, sana po abutan ko si Doc." When I arrived, his staff are already preparing to leave. Hanggang 11:30am na lang pala ang clinic hours niya. It was already 11:45am when I got off the tricycle. :(
I was upset, of course. I just sighed and said, "Lord naman e." My other option was Dra. Riza but her clinic is a bit far. When I reached Marcos Highway again, I saw a dear hospital: Salve Regina. And I found myself walking towards it. The OPD staff knew me already. (And I appreciate that they asked me how I was, sabay sabing, "mag-asawa ka na kasi para mawala na lahat ng mga sakit mo." Here we go again. Haha.) That's where I had my first operation and my many ultrasounds and lab tests. I asked them if there's an ENT doctor on duty. Lo and behold, there was! And I arrived just in time (I was her last patient).
Her diagnosis just proved that I am my father's daughter. We always acquire the same illness. We share almost the same health problems.
So what's my point? You may not find anything special about what I shared. There's not really a major "wow" factor to it, but this simple experience reminded me of the truth I tend to forget these days: "God's NO is not always a rejection. Sometimes, it's a redirection." And that redirection is always for the better. :)
I prayed for Dr. Mariano's availability because he has been our family doctor. God said no because He wanted me to see an ENT specialist. Dr. Mariano is a cardiologist, by the way, and God knew I didn't need a heart doctor. Okay naman daw kasi ang puso ko. Alaga naman sa pagmamahal. *winks*
You see I have been wrestling with God over a few "life goals" I have for this year. Not once did He say no. And most of the time, I end up questioning Him, "why."
Today, He answered why.
He just knows better. Who am I to compete with an all-knowing, all-powerful God?
At sa totoo lang, hindi naman talaga Niya ako pinabayaan kahit kailan. Kailangan ko lang talagang magtiwala. ♥
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Sa mga panahong hindi mo na alam kung bakit, paano, sino, kailan, o saan, huwag kang mag-alala, alam NIYA! :)