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Emmanuel

"There are four kinds of people in this world:
•those who make things happen
•those who watch things happen
•those who wonder what happened
•those who don’t know that anything happened!
I knew from a very early age that I wanted to be first on that list."
(Mary Kay Ash)

I am the first kind. I make things happen. Not because I am good but because I have God. Since time immemorial, I have been tagged as "perfectionist", "OC", or even "OA." It's because I don't settle for anything less. I don't do things just for the sake of doing them. I strive for excellence... all the time. I am always after quality and not just getting things done. I am so passionate about setting things right as well. I follow rules and I am strict in implementing guidelines. And because of this personality, I gained a lot of friends (read: critics). And sometimes these friends become modern day Judases who would kiss and hug you and tell great things about you when you're with them, but would tell lies and prejudices behind your back.

It's disappointing, but more than that, it hurts to realize that the people you trust can be the same people who will betray you. I could just imagine how Jesus felt when Judas played his role of a traitor. Though He already knew it would happen, I bet He was still hurt. Judas was not just a friend, he was a brother.

I am at that point again. When trusted people fails to be true. When negative things are told about you. When  you just don't know who really is on your side.

I am at that point when it hurts to obey. Because you just don't get the point of inconsistency. Because you feel so tired and it doesn't help when you see people not doing their jobs or doing things in mediocrity. I mean how could they? Then I realized, they could because there are people who sacrifice, there are people who go beyond their limits just to deliver quality results.

This post could go on with all the other personal sentiments. But this blog is not about whining and complaining and just wishing things were better. This blog is a collection of personal experiences that are meant to teach a lesson and help one grow in faith, love, and Christian character.

While I acknowledge that I do feel bad, I am not letting those negative sentiments get the best of me. I will continue doing what is right and what is needed. I will continue to be my true self. I will continue to trust and obey. Because I know who I am serving and to whom I really belong. I am serving a great God who is just and righteous. I am serving a God who sees everything, knows everything, understands everything. I am serving a God who deserves nothing but the best, nothing but my all.

And this God is giving me the assurance that as I follow Him -
I will never meet a fear He cannot conquer;
I will never face an enemy He cannot defeat;
I will never enter a battle He cannot win;
I will never have a need He cannot meet;
I will never face a temptation He cannot overcome;
I will never have a burden He cannot lift;
I will never face a problem He cannot solve;
I will never have a bondage He cannot break;
I will never have a moment when He does not care;
I will never have a time when He is not there.
(adapted from http://www.meetmeinthemeadow.com/2013/01/assurance-a-repost/)

I will be faithful because He is. I can because He can. He is my strength, my provider, my redeemer, my greatest reward, and my reason for living. :)

No longer I but Christ who lives in me. Christ who is with me. ♥



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